A while back, I brought up one of my random irrational fears to someone because it was something that had been sitting in the back of my mind for so long. Frankly, I wanted to know if anyone else felt the same way. The conversation went a little something like this.

Me: This is weird but whenever I exit a store, I always have a fear that the security alarm is going to go off and I’m going to get arrested for a theft that I didn’t commit.

Him: OH MY GOD I FEEL THE SAME WAY.

So, now that I know I’m not alone in my irrational fears, I thought I would share some with all of you and maybe we can all bond over how weird we are.

 

Store Security Alarm

I don’t even know where this one started but in recent years, every single time I leave a store, I have to mentally prepare myself for the security alarm to go off. The worst part is, one time the alarm actually did go off and it FREAKED me out. I froze and didn’t know what to do with myself as I frantically looked around at the store clerk with a look of confusion. Turns out, it was a faulty alarm but it only just made me more paranoid. Love that.

Sidewalk Grates

This is one fear that I’ve had for as long as I can remember. I used to refuse to walk on sidewalk grates because I thought that I would fall through them. Frankly, I think they look hella dangerous. I mean, there are holes everywhere it just doesn’t look architecturally stable.

Public Bathroom Flushing

Every time I come out of a public bathroom stall and I see someone else waiting in line to go into the same stall I just used, I get this weird fear that perhaps I didn’t fully flush properly. You know, sometimes your mind wanders and you forget to check whether everything went down properly and it’s just embarrassing and gross for someone else to walk into that.

Airplane Flushing

Speaking of flushing, this one is a weird one. The flushing sound of airplane toilets scare me so much. It’s this massive flush that sounds like the soul is being sucked out of the toilet. So, whenever I have to use the bathroom on the plane, I mentally prepare myself for the sound but even then, I get a little jolt everytime.

Potential Danger – How to Escape

Whenever I’m in a room for a long period of time and I get bored, my mind starts to wander. Sure, I think about a lot of other things, like what I’m going to snack on later or how the boy sitting in front of me has really nice hair.  However, eventually, my mind always lands on one place. I always plan out my escape route if an attacker were to enter. I image someone coming through the door and think about where I would hide. Normally, I check out the window to see if jumping out of it would be a valid option- sure I might get a few broken bones but it might be worth it. Please tell me someone else does this.

Music In A Quiet Room

Sometimes when I’m in the library or anywhere quiet, I can hear the music blasting through someone else’s headphones. I have to say, most of the time it comes from the Apple headphones because I have experienced first hand the extent of sound leaking that comes from those things. Every time I’m in the library studying and I turn up the volume of my music, I cautiously have to take my earbuds or headphones off to see if anyone else can hear my music. Whenever someone else stares or looks at me in the library, I always think it’s because they can hear my music. What can I say, I just get paranoid and worried about the most random things. It happens every single time.

 

That’s all for today, what are some of your irrational fears?

 

XOXO,
Sindy Spencer

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The other day, I was walking home from the flower shop with a small bouquet of white lilies. I had gotten them from a small convenience store because I was too lazy to go to an actual florist and I didn’t have the funds to buy myself a $50 bouquet.  It was the day before Valentine’s day and I was seeing people walking around with roses and gifts. There was something in the air that felt like anticipation. It wasn’t really a good kind of anticipation either, it felt like the universe was gearing up for the most romantic day of the year, anticipating flowers, love and that someone special. All I could think about was the story of two people who didn’t get their happy ending.

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They met in the most unconventional manner, in the most unlikely of situations. Legend has it, they met in a Wholefoods, but who really knows. She was in his city for one day and they somehow found each other.

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The conversation never stopped from there. They were in that period of getting to know each other, the good kind of anticipation where you’re hoping the other person loves the same things as you do.

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The texting turned into Skype calls, talking for hours until the sun starts to rise. They never realized that eight hours could pass so quickly, it seemed like time had just flown by.  Yet, they were still staring at each other, wondering how you could potentially miss a person you’ve never met in person. Is that even possible? But there was an understanding between them, something about this wasn’t ordinary. There was something special.

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They met up 7 weeks after. Fresh off the plane at 11pm, she got into the passenger seat and squeezed his hand. All her nerves vanished when she saw him. It was like coming home to someone she had known forever.

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A week later, they sat alone on a ski lift with the world in absolute silence around them. Sharing that moment of silence with all the unspoken words between them- but the silence was enough. There’s somehthing magical about a long ride in a ski lift, all you can see around you is a sea of white- like a snow globe. Either way you’re surrounded. The world enclosed around them and in that moment, she felt like she was exactly where she was supposed to be. Sitting next to him, her head on his shoulder. She stared into his eyes, hoping that through her eyes alone he could see how much he meant to her.

In that moment, they were happy.

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Two weeks later, he started having doubts. Maybe things got too real. Maybe he realized she only had eyes for him and she was throwing herself all in. He was scared of getting hurt, perhaps not realizing that she would never hurt him. Perhaps he thought that long distance never has a happy ending – he had done it before and it didn’t work. Why would this be different. Through a call a week later, while she sat in the sat in the dark in the corner of her living room awaiting what felt like a prison sentence, he ended things.

The snow around them came crashing down on their fairytale. The glass broke on the snow globe and all she felt was the cold sting of the snow on her heart. In the heat of the moment, she started to blame him. While she sat there crying, all she wanted to see was that he was hurting too. She wanted to yell but no words were coming out.

She wanted him to say that it was all a joke, a huge elaborate prank. All she could see was him with his head down, his hands in his face. She could tell he was hurting too. Somehow, that hurt her even more. She wanted to plead. She wanted to tell him that she believes it can work. She wanted to tell him that she thinks there is hope, all they needed was a little patience. Things would find a way to work themselves out. She wanted to tell him he was wrong to let go of something so special.

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I’m still carrying my bouquet of lilies, my hands are freezing now because I didn’t bring my gloves and the bitterness in the cold was now seeping through my jacket. I’m getting progressviely more annoyed at the fact that Valentine’s Day was the next day and there I was, walking home alone with flowers I had bought for myself and no one to even wish me a happy Valentine’s day. Yes, very pessimistic I know, I threw myself a huge pity party on my walk home. But then, I looked up.

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I had to do a double take to make sure I wasn’t seeing things. You go girl. So simple yet so true. It’s not wrong to be sad and dwell on something that was special. It’s not wrong to keep trying for something you want. However, it’s important to love yourself first. Cliche, I know but it’s true. Two people who are meant to be together will end up together one day. It might be in a few weeks, months or even years from now. Give the other person some time to find themselves. But, if you belive – eventually things will come around full circle. You just have to be patient.

For now, pick yourself up and throw yourself into something that you love to do. Pick up the pieces and start fresh.

 

xoxo,

Sindy Spencer

 

 

 

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I’ve been thinking a lot recently about taking chances and risks and why I don’t take a lot of them.

I would say I’m a careful person. I have a fear of the unknown and I don’t like making mistakes. I like to think about everything before I act on it and I only take very calculated risks. I’m scared of getting hurt. I think in some ways, it has made me a more closed off person and perhaps I’ve missed out on opportunities. Who knows…I may have missed out on a new position, new person or new experience.

When I was super young, a tv station came to interview at the studio where I was taking art lessons. My art teacher asked me if I wanted to be interviewed but I was too scared to take the risk. He gave it to someone else instead.

In freshman year, I started talking to this really nice guy who we’ll call…Bob. We met at a party where a friend of mine introduced us. We started talking a lot after that and he was everything that I thought I wanted at the time. It was when things started becoming more real that I got scared. I wanted to be sure that he was THE ONE. I wanted to be sure that he was worth it. Frankly, in all honesty, Bob probably wasn’t …THE ONE but it’s the fact that I didn’t even give him a chance. I backed out before it even started because I was scared of making a mistake. That’s not how we should live in that constant bubble of fear, letting our past dictate how we do things in the present. Everyone is different and it’s important to take the chance.

Both these examples are very small I know but it’s a buildup of these small these occurrences that have made me realize that I need to stop being scared.

I started to wander out of my comfort zone this past summer after realizing that I might have been restricting myself from doing things I wanted to do. It was hard I won’t lie. I felt like I was going against everything I’ve always believed in.

But I realized something. I’m only going to be in my 20s once in my life and if I don’t take my risks now, when am I going to do it? This is the time to say yes to everything, without caring about the consequences. This is the time to be spontaneous. This is the time to take that road trip for one day just for the hell of it. This is the time to book a bus ticket and leave. This is the time to stop overthinking everything and just go with the flow. I’ve come to realize that overthinking things actually stops me from being happy.

There is a time and place for everything and right now isn’t the time for me to sit at home worrying about what’s going to happen one year from now or whether or not I need to get another pillow for my couch because frankly, it doesn’t matter. What matters are the experiences.

I stopped making new years resolutions about two years ago when I realized they were kind of useless. However, I have one for 2018.

Be spontaneous and take more chances.

xoxo,

Sindy Spencer

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Drew Sirtors once said, “watches are so named as a reminder – if you don’t watch carefully what you do with your time it will slip away from you”. My mom has always told me that having a watch is important because you should always know what time it is. I never really thought much of watches because why have a watch to tell time when I have my phone (duh). However, it took me years to finally realize that a watch is not only useful but, a great jewelry piece.

I’ve owned one watch my whole life and prior to this year, I had never really thought about getting another one. Sadly, my watch broke recently and I had to send it back to their factory to get it fixed and I was left WATCHLESS. This was the same time that JORD reached out to me regarding a partnership and the timing could not have been better.

What I love about JORD watches is that it is unique. That’s really the key word here. Everyone around me has the same Michael Kors or Marc Jacobs gold watch. Now, I’m not hating because I myself am one of those people. However, I can guarantee you that I don’t know anyone else who has a handcrafted wood watch. They have such a wide range of watches to choose from and there’s really something for everyone’s taste! There are watches with slightly larger faces and watches (like the one I chose) with a smaller face. There are other types of wood, some lighter and some darker. I chose a watch from the Frankie 35 series in zebrawood and navy. I thought there was something so special about having that subtle pop of color in the face of the watch and the Navy really looks so beautiful against the wood. Navy is also one of my favorite colors and I swear half my wardrobe is navy so I knew it would go well with my outfits.

To start off, the box that the watch came in is almost as beautiful as the watch. I currently have it has a decoration piece in my living room (oops). Secondly, the watch looks amazing on. I was slightly skeptical about whether I’d look good in a wooden watch but it seriously looks great! I got so many compliments from people saying how great the blue looked and they were so surprised by the fact that the watch was made from wood!

I think the darker tones of this watch is especially perfect for the colder months because I don’t know about you guys but whenever the temperature starts dropping, so does the color in my wardrobe. I stick mainly to blacks, blues and greys during winter.

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I put together this super simple fall-friendly outfit that’s great for the days when it’s not too cold out! You guys have seen me talking about this skirt forever but you can’t go wrong with suede this time of year! I paired it with a NAVY sweater that perfectly coordinated with my watch. The watch really ties the whole look together especially under the right light, you can see how much the blue really shines through.

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With the holiday season coming up, I know I always struggle to figure out what to get for family and friends (or even for myself…because let’s be honest, TREAT YO SELF). I’m so happy to be providing you guys with an instant 25% off coupon code if you want to purchase one! I know I’m going to be buying one for my mom because once she spotted my Jord, she almost took it from me! I’m thankful that we don’t have the same wrist size because I would have never seen it again!

Link to coupon code: https://www.woodwatches.com/g/sindyspencer

My watch: https://www.woodwatches.com/series/frankie-35/zebrawood-and-navy#sindyspencer

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Forever 21 Suede Skirt  /  Navy Sweater


Wooden Wristwatch

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Happy Fall! I’ve found that the weather has been really odd this year – it has been unusually warm for this time of year. Anyone else feel the same way? When I got back to school in September, it was FREEZING for the first week and then all of the sudden it was like summer decided to come up for one last hurrah and to this day I still can’t believe the amazing weather we had in Montreal.

Anyways, I want to talk about pants…because I hate them. I get so tired of always wearing the same black jeans and I would rather wear a dress or a skirt. It’s just hard to be creative when winter starts rolling around and I’m not trying to look cute in freezing weather so…in those cases skinny black jeans are my best friend. BUT while the weather is still kind to us, I decided to venture out of my comfort zone.

 

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These checked pants are actually very old. I found them when I went home for Thanksgiving and shopped my mom’s closet. I’m almost 100% sure she got these pants in the early 2000s but it amazes me that it’s so in style now. I see these pants everywhere and I can easily find almost the exact same pants in stores like Zara. Isn’t it funny that fashion trends come and go?

I fell in love with the pattern and style of the pants and they’re honestly perfect for fall! The material is heavy enough to keep your legs warm but it’s not too hot either. I paired these pants with a body suit from forever21 because if there’s one thing I hate, it’s tucking a shirt into pants or a skirt and having that little bulge of fabric around the stomach. Body suits are just EASY and they guarantee a bulge-free outfit.

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I feel like mules would have looked amazing with this outfit but I couldn’t find my white Geox mules that I literally wore every single day this summer so I opted for these leather shoes from esso which I’ve had for such a long time but it was one of those shoes you have forever but never wear. I don’t even know why I don’t wear them because they’re so comfortable and stylish! I have picky feet and I’ve never gotten blisters wearing these! It’s almost like not wearing shoes.

This outfit is so simple to put together and the pants are the star show so you could really throw on any top! A white top could work, even grey or brown would be super cute! When you have one statement piece in the outfit, the rest kind of comes naturally!

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Have you guys been participating in this checkered pants trend this fall?? These pants make me feel so put together but all I really did was put on a pair of pants! I’ve linked similar, if not the exact same pants below so definitely check them out if you guys are interested in getting a pair!! I’m also going to link other similar items for other parts of my outfit as well!!

Shoes  /  Bodysuit / Zara Checked Culottes / Zara Checked Trousers / Zara Straight Leg Trousers

XOXO,

SINDY SPENCER

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